Emo Post

I cried last nite, after I went offline, after I was like complaining to so many ppl that how am I not happy bout something .. Is been like after so long, I really never had such a cry .. I totally got no idea what am I crying for, I went to bed, was lying down .. then tears start coming out .. and I start crying .. I think I really cry out for so many things that is not going the way I want. Sooooooo many things that I cant even let ppl know, so many things that I fail to achieve ..

Is like the totally different me, infront of ppl and behind of ppl. infront of ppl, im the type of ppl that infront of ppl, I really can larf at any jokes, I can crack wif any jokes, and I cant just chat wif u all day long. But the real me that is gonna creeps out before I went to sleep .. Is like so many things that hide inside my heart. There is ppl say .. there is definitely things that u can share out wif ppl other than God .. True .. but the fact is .. can I ??

Esp today, after been chat wif someone .. I found out there is so many things, glad that at least the person shared with me, I try my best to comfort the person .. but actually when I does that .. =/ I got sad ... for no reason .. or maybe just cause ... I duno !!

I admit, I had a crush on someone .. but ... nvm ..

Sorry for this post .. just feel like shouting it out